2/5/07 10:08 pm
Well again long time not update.
This may turn into a bit of a rant.
On the up side I'm pleased and have been in a good mood all day because I've registered with the OU and will be doing a degree in business studies and environmental studies. I feel better as I think I've been stuck in a rut (aka early mid life crisis) and wondering what i'm doing with my life etc. The business studies I feel will help me with the business side of my career and I do find it relatively interesting. I mean I work in insurance and find that interesting. The environmental studies is to fuel the geek side and I'm excited with the topics and the fact that we are recommended to read New Scientist which I do anyway. Although my job in itself is not boring I really do not want to be there forever.
I've made one jump, the next are to book driving lessons and go to the dentist. I need a filling I fear.
On the downside I can feel the 'fat thing' lurking in the depths of my mind. I'm ignoring it and hopefully if I pretend it's not there it'll go away. Either that or I'll turn it into positive energy to eat healthily and exercise properly. But I feel that may be a little optimistic.
My faith in the NHS is forever diminishing. I was told to have a scan and await a letter from the scan people with an appointment. 4 weeks later I still have no letter. I mean what if it was something serious or appendicitus or something. But then I suppose if its been going on 6 months why not a bit longer. My diagnosis has been spanning over 2 months and I am not much the wiser. I might just give up and hope its not anything serious. Maybe thats what they were hoping. 'We don't know what it is so lets make her wait ages for everything and she might lose interest!'
Eh I am so tired. I have Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off :) Not that I am lazy but I am looking forward to sleeping. I am still well into my Harry Potter binge/obsession. I have read 6,5,6,1,2,3,4,5 and am reading 6 again. This is over the last month or so. And even better, during my addiction it is revealed the 7th is coming out on the 21st of July and I'm not working. So yay! I don't care if anyone thinks Harry Potter is lame/sad/juvenile. This is great as it means I have 3 books to look forwards to this year. The next discworld novel that I have forgotten, Ian Irvine, Song of the tears 2 out Oct/Nov time and Harry Potter 7 due out in July.
There are other issues driving me insane but it's prob best if i dont go into too much detaild here. I'm just incredibly frustrated because I don't know how I'm supposed to help a friend who won't help themself and keeps putting themself back in the same position by choice. I feel like I'm running out of patience incredibly fast. It's been happening for so long now I just don't know why I bother. I've always tried so hard and it just gets shoved back in mine and everyone elses faces every single time.